nothing but regret....

This MHS have been a sad week for me, for i've a bad news for myself, my sem 2 pointer are jz around 2.7. Tears shed, regretting myself for nt doing well in my mid-sem and nothing can be done to save it anymore.

Now, the only way is to change totally for the brand new sem, it mayb hard for me to achieve the goal, but with the propulsion from the great sorry to my parents and myself, i'll try my best. I want to transform into the brand new me, no more late nights, no more truant, tutorials are done and revision is a must everyday. This is the plan, hope that i can get some support to stamp the old self and bury it deep into the core of my heart and bring out all the good potentials, and make a new-self.

wat am i writing??

jalan sini jalan ke mari,

hendak membeli kayu;

setiap saat setiap hari,

hanya saya missing u.

PP.....

Officially, a 'PP' am I nw......wat's tat, lots would b curious bout......

'PP' means pembantu pelajar in Bm, sort like a helper for those newcomers n orientate them. To bcum tis, interview, then training and finally assigned. Training was middle-tough, yet, it's still an enjoyable process. Laughters been spread, new bonds are made and strengthen, friendship network widens it's coverage, lessons learnt, and self-qualities upgraded.

Reli hopes that the MHS week would b enjoyable, though i'm in Biro Disiplin, whr i have to stick my face up always, and scold ppl here n thr, making my image to b a bad guy......haha. Anyway, hopes every1 appreciate tat week, cz it's the last week to be wit the ex-asasian students, which were jz frens for such a short time.

Go! Go! Go! FOR ALL PP! GO FOR MHS!!!

I'm ugly, she's pretty...hihi

Taken wif my low quality phone camera, but she's still so pretty, haha. Happy for the trip at genting, happy for myself, happy for her, happy for everything..............unlimited happiness....haha. Thx her alot, for what she gives.....love her!

darkness

It's dark, pitch black, all around me. There's only a feeble light shining on my face. It's kinda warm, but that's not what i wanted. I want brightness.........

I want a sunny bright light, to shine me a path. A path to the shrine of knowledge, up above the high top. Some do love lurking around in the darkness, it's sounds exciting. But, for me, being under the sunshine, it's still the best.

I hate this dark era, so please grant me with intelligence and a torch of great light, so that i could walk past this era safe and sound.

the road

I'm starting to lose my breath, the end look so near, yet it's too far to reach.

I'm running on the road to the end, it looks so simple, by just reaching the end, you'll get a great prize. But, when you're on it, it will show the true colours of it slowly. Sometimes, u feel like u knew what lies at the next corner, but sometimes, u wont be able to predict what's going on next. The road is just so unpredictable, so hard to understand.

Frequently, i have thought of taking a quick end, but the light of hopes would just never extinguish. Run and run, watching one by one participants reached the end, its just so hurt, and making me feel more low and humble. I often think that the reason i'm lacking off is that i'm not a long distance runner, i'm lack of stamina, strength or maybe intelligence.But, i never found a way for myself, to get myself out of this mess.

Maybe the prizes at the end were never meant to be mine. Now, i'm starting to regret for participating for the 1st place, when i have already knew what the capabilities of mine are. I'm frustrating, i'm lost, i'm helpless. Should i muster all my energy and end this? Or should a take a stop here and end the race forever?

Traphole

It's a hole just like wat u've seen in the movie of 'Alice in the Wonderland', a hole so deep that u barely can see the bottom, so intriguing, seducing u to look in it, so that u can fell into it. Pls be caution, don ever fell to it, it's a trap-hole. Once u dipped a lil into the dark hole, u'll b trapped, then u'll feel like being sucked into a black hole. The same happened to me, i cnt even climbed out of it. I've been pulled n sucked deeper and deeper. You can do nothing, but to wait for some 'white prince' or a Xena the Lady Warrior to cum n save u. If thr's no one, then it's time to wait for some extremely low percentage miracles to happen. Or, unless, you really have strong 'survival' skill in this matter.

So, believe me, this intriguing, special-looking hole, is a never-should-step-in hole. But, once u accidentally gt in, i sincerely hope that u'll get nice dreams in thr, as the inner content of the hole are different and varies from person to person. Final caution, remember, carefree and being alone is always the best, and it may not seems so pity as what u've heard and seen. The hole is just a trap, a hole that'll trap all your feelings, emotion and even urself. Therefore, it's advisable to not step into the hole, unless you have truly matured, rational consciousness, so that u dont get hurt or trapped. =)