Lie or truth?!

Recently, i've been thinking a lot. A lot of matters popped out of my mind. Day n nite i've been thinking bout these....slowly one by one is solved, but only a matter or two left.

One of it is about myself. I tink, ive been lying to myself for a period of time. I feel like i'm hypnotizing myself to walk a way of life that would not be taken by the rational me. Am i living based on a lie? Or am i walking the right way?

Feelings have surpassed every barriers in my inner heart, it's even capable of deceiving my brains and abandon of my rationality. So, it would be absolutely hard for me wake up and to think about this matter. Only one can solve my problem and she's the only one.

But, on the same time, when i've found the way to solve my problem, i'm struggling to wake up. Mayb this fake lie is a desirable life compared to another path that may lead to darkness.

So, is it lie or truth? Should i be awake or kept in this dream life? Answers are yet to be found!

Smiling is the best!!!

Problems happened, quarrels occurred, relationships are ruined. This is the most unwanted difficulties in everyone's life. But, it's fate, maybe, that makes it happen.

Because of this, smile fades away, gloomy faces emerge, part of my world have turned into land of misery. Although i'm nt part of it, but it's really miserable and uncomfortable to be near with it. The once always shining sun have turned into the gloomy, dark, lonely moon.

Perhaps, i'm nt in a position to say who's wrong and who's right. But, deep in my heart, i really hope that they can solve the problems as soon as possible. I really hope to retain the bright smiles on their faces and so do i wanted my land back to normal. Isn't smiling is the best? So, do smile always, it cures the sadness. Smile every1!!!!

MAG

It's a first prom for me, amazingly, i feel nothing too special from the other dinner i have went. It's more like a proper function for people to snap photos of their best looks and enjoy nice dinner.

However, in this dinner, i saw something interesting, a lot of couples start popping out, like the mushrooms after the rain. It's sure a good news for the paparazzi in the college, cz they have new topics to discuss again. I really congrats them for succeeding, and on the same time, i'm sad for myself.

Tat nite was already satisfying for me, at least at gt to take a pic with her and that's the best picture for the nite. Thx her for allowing me to snap a pic with her.

A Lucky Charm pls...

Days like this have caused a lot of nuisance for me, they're bothering my mind everyday, I just cant stand it anymore!!

They're outnumbering my normal days, boldly interrupting my normal life, slowly turning me into abnormal. Pls God, i'm just an ordinary teenage who wanna enjoy the university. Pls stop testing me with these. I'm weak, helpless and will not stand long enough to pass ur test. Damn, I'm just so desperate to have a lucky charm. I'm praying hard also for some lucky 'demi-god' to stand near me and sweep away those unlucky days.

So, if u feel u'r lucky, jz a simple request i would like to ask. That is, donate some luck for me, or just stay beside me, I jz dont want to be like hell of a shit like now anymore. PLEASE!!!

Proms

Prom or prom nights are the American culture of which I think is one of the best. Although in the nation, proms has been held starting from high school, but in Malaysia, it is more commonly seen in Universities. However, it is already a satisfactory for it an be embedded in this conservative-minded nation.

Proms are all about dance, a dinner, pairs, and the most important, gorgeous and smart attires, as seen in the above picture. The proms are believed to be the nights that will remain as sweet memories in everyone's minds.

For me, a 'kampung' guy, i never knew that there's prom in the university. I came with a bag of stupid looking clothes, and those cant even full my small cupboard. There's no and wont be any suitable attires for prom nights will ever exist in my cupboard nor at home. Until i went out and bought it, spending vast amount of cash on them.

Therefore, proms are events that are excruciating and maybe will be a good experience for a first-timer like me ( I havent attend 1....hahaah). Hoping to enjoy in the incoming MAG nite.....

Cherishing....

Time passed so swiftly, hardly i can realize that i'm actually a University student already. Refreshing the moments of matriculation, secondary, and primary school, I really have some regrets for not totally enjoying those moments. But, what can i do, i have no power to reverse time. Now, i'm in a University campus, and what i can do is enjoy the moments here fully.

However, who knows, maybe i'm jz not the type or not the one that is destined to enjoy. Because of enjoying too much, going for outings, i had a bad result. What a shame of me! Reanalysing the matter, mayb it's because I cnt control my own will....i couldnt ignore those attractions and seductions. Shopping complexes that are jz not far from the campus, places for supper that are near, friends that can play around, unlimited web access.........But, when a campus is lack of these, we'll be like singaporeans, complaining here and they're. When they're here, we jz cnt stop being seduced, wasting your time at any moment. Or mayb it's jz me, my weak will.

Aside from that, i accidentally have feelings for her. In the bottom of my heart, i reli dunno y i'm so attracted to her. She's not a beauty, she's nothing special, she's...................but y?Why i'm so attracted to her? So willing to sacrifice myself for her, wishing to meet her evrytime, wanna treat her for anything, thinks of her anytime, y?

However, i kept being turned down, once, twice, thrice, and more, but y i jz cant let it go or forget it. I jz kept on going down the doomsvalley, although i knew it a one-way trip, thr's no turning back. She has gained the power, sort of to take control of me. Can somebody save me??

Forget bout those 'devil', i believe i still have some 'angels' here. In my college, I sort of have 2 family, one is the real 1, Kiwi......a family filled with 'yellow' guys and friendly girls. Moments during the family trip, outings, birthday parties would sure be cherished. Although I'm always the joker, but they're the best audience. I really appreciate it, if they never clapped, i would have been a lonely joker.

Next, is the P&C Cherry family, the members though are in a small amount. But, all are members and friends who are fun, who can fool around, and are jokers as same as me. Among the members, there are even a joker specialized on cold jokes, mayb we should bring some jackets during the family reunion. well, the family's age is jz not more than a month. But, it's really a great pleasure to spend time with them.

Thank you all of you for accompanying me. Thanks for being my friends, thanks from saving me from loneliness. And, you thanks for giving me such feelings. These would sure be cherished, treasured and kept in the depth of my heart. =)