Hate myself!!

Hate myself for being so useless;
Hate myself for being weak on promises;
Hate myself for being addicted to laziness;
Hate myself for being totally out of money senses.

Hate myself for being bad in studies;
Hate myself for being nothing in leaderships;
Hate myself for having no work capabilities;
Hate myself for being nothing but an ordinary useless.

weak

I dunno y, but since tis sem started, i've been weak. I mean not jz my physical condition, but mentally too. Perhaps, being a leader jz ain't easy enough for such kind of a person like me.

Although I've slept early almost everyday, but it seems my body are still vulnerable to those common diseases, such as flu, fever and cough. Nt jz me, she experienced it as well, is this call 'love sick' ?? haha...i wonder@.@

Obstacles are kept running to my way for this sem, and if i'm continuing in the weakest me, i bet i would fell down b4 the obstacles. So, i hope that i can be stronger in both physical and mental to overcome them and do my best in both curricular and academic.

EQ

I curse u all!! U bloody hells, damn u all!! made my emotions lost control, especially my anger, it even burns others!! don't let me know who you are, if nt u'r sure gonna get it!! U bloody hell!!

Stupid Pig-Heads!!

Damn! I'm freakingly shocked when i heard such a statement!! I reli can't believe this is what that could be said by university student?!

After hearing those words, i'm totally stunned, fire of anger started to burn stronger and stronger in my belly, and rises, and i nearly spit flame!! Damn freakish pig heads, can't believe they could say such thing. Jz imagine u exchange places, what would u feel when u heard those words?! Damn bloody shitheads!! Can't believe still gt ppl agree wit that. U all can jz go find a clean white wall and knocked your heads off!! Stupid bastard idiotic bloody shit-pig-heads!!

Shutting down my mind

I feel that my evil sides have gained more than half of the control over my mind, maybe i shud let it rest and installing a strong antivirus to kill my evil thoughts.............

Hope i won't think so much again after this shut-down

WHY??

Why i feel like this?

Why i feel like this, when he's here?

Why i feel like this, when he's here, around her?

Is it some sort of distorted jealousy? But, why?

Am i thinking too much? But, why?

Why? why? WHY?

Should i leave this unsolved or should i put my hands into it?

But, the only problem is I dunno why i feel like this..........

looks alike

it's aint couple-tee, but they jz look alike, rite? (kekeke). Bsides, it's my 1st time taking my own ss pic in public......mayb reli a gud experience for the other times....hehehe